Rhode Island Coffee

Saturday 6th November 2010

6:52pm

Sitting in Rhode Island Coffee in town today I reflected on everything - for a few seconds I slipped back in time and saw a skeletal girl sitting in the corner away from everyone hiding every mouthful of food so that no one could see her eat - however, today in the corner was a happy girl smiling and having lunch with her boyfriend, although still nervous about food she looked more comfortable and for once happy. No food was been hidden and no lies were been told to the lad next to her, she just smiled laughed and couldn't believe how much her life had changed.

Life goes by too quickly but for me that hour went so slowly, I was enjoying it and crying inside knowing how BIG the step was in which I was making.

Walking round Warrington Town Centre was once just a load of exercise looking at clothes which I wanted to fit into as soon as possible size 6 and below - the waist on the jeans was so dinner and everything looked so much nicer smaller, however, town to me now is a place to socialise and to drag Tom round, randomly buying a nice top which is a suitable size and a nice pair of jeans which too are a more sensible size although sometimes depending on the style they have to be a size which normally my mum wouldn't approve of - but oh well, even I have to accept it sometimes that it's a one off and not to think I've lost loads of weight and should feel proud of myself.

Spending weekends away from home is actually nice, for once I enjoy spending time with other people and Tom makes me face fears - including acknowledging people in town as normally I can become really withdrawn and it's like I'm floating round town just in a little world of my own =]

I've not laughed this much in a long time and I hope it stays .....

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